~Home begins in the kitchen~

~home made latte~

When we left our home in February due to the unfortunate tree incident, I had no idea how long we would be gone. I was in a state of numbing shock. When I went to my home, post tree-fall, I just wandered around the kitchen lost. I wanted to clean, but it was almost pointless. There were holes in the ceiling, it was constantly raining, constantly saturating the whole place. The insurance company told us we would be “packed” out.   Well, as far as I was concerned they could just throw it all out. It was a total loss in my mind.  I really detached myself from my home. I think it was a coping mechanism because my house was so broken, it was just so sad.  We took the items from the fridge, freezer, our coffeepot and a few spices. Duh… what was I thinking?? I was so lost without my “things.”  I did not want to become too comfortable at our rental home, all I wanted was to go home, so we made do. Now that we are back and mostly unpacked when I am in my kitchen I feel that I am HOME.  It brings me great joy to be back home, in the kitchen.  I could not be happier.

~fresh tomato’s on the sill, yes, it’s Summertime~

~fried egg sandwich on home-made english muffin bread, yep.

~~ tomato, avocado, mozzarella salad with zucchini fritters, yes please.

I love to cook, love to eat.  I feel a little behind on the season, but I am catching up as fast as I  can.  I am going to try to savor these last few months of summer and enjoy each fresh prepared meal I make.

~ a little roasted chickpea snack, yum.

:: All recipes can be found on my Pinterest, under “Yummy Food to Make” ::

Storm Slaps Power Lines Silly – WREG

Storm Slaps Power Lines Silly – WREG.

Do you believe in Angels? I do.

Our angels surrounded us Thursday night I wanted to share what happened to us and our home. 

My  house and my husband are  in the beginning of this news article.  We are all completely shell shocked.  The damage and the  scope  is just barely sinking in. We are all fine, our home however is not.  We are on edge until our insurance tells us what to expect. At this point they have brought in a huge crew and cranes to clear the house. They  tarped the house as we have more severe weather heading our way Sunday and Monday.

I wish I could erase this event from Emma’s memory. She is scared and confused.  Her room took the brunt. Her birthday is Monday and she keeps asking why did this happen on my birthday??  We have a battered home and are living like refugeee’s but we are blessed. People don’t always surrvive huge huge oak trees falling in their home. Our angels surrounded us, they shielded us from harm. 

 I am filled with gratitude and pray for peace and patience. I will breathe deeply and often with my focus on gratitude.  Things can be replaced, hopefully our home rebuilt. Above all we are still a family and we are intact. Gratitude.

~Yesterday was a good day~

I came across this quote from   Camilla’s blog Bloom , it struck a chord with me.

   People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.  Forgive them anyway.

            If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.  Be kind anyway.

            If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.  Succeed anyway.

           If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.  Be honest and sincere anyway.

            What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.  Create anyway.

            If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.  Be happy anyway.

            The good you do today, will often be forgotten.  Do good anyway.

         Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.  Give your best anyway.

         In the final analysis, it is between you and God.  It was never between you and them anyway.

-this version is credited to Mother Teresa, it was written on the wall of her home for children in Calcutta, India.

Isn’t this a wonderful thought? I think it is!!

 ~I have been cutting many bouquet’s of Camellia’s.

The garden is back to life and I am so thankful for that. I had come to believe that I would not feel the garden call me, that I would feel the love to garden again, I lost my joy somewhere between the death of my brother and then my father. 

It is hard to explain, my garden was always my refuge from the stress of life, it was my buffer from the real world to my own world.   Yet for the last few years, it just was neither a buffer or a refuge.  I came to resent this garden and I wanted no part of it. How sad, but true..

Somewhere between the sun shining and the little buds that have turned to blooms, I am feeling the pull.  As I peer out my kitchen window, it is calling me. The garden is calling me! 

Baby steps here as I allow myself to go and get lost again in my very own garden.  I realize how much I have missed this quiet time.  I almost gave up, but I realize that my garden is  predictable and true.  As I rediscover my plant it is like finding my old familiar friends. It did not give up on me, it has simply been patiently waiting for me~ it was always there.  I know this is true.

~Cherry blooms over my head~

 

~lettuce and arugula happy from the rain this morning~

~Spring in a pot, planted in anticipation ~

 

 
My friends are on their way back!!!!
For this I am so thankful.

~Lordy, Lordy, I can’t be 40~

Dear God, I am 40.

I am not really believing it.  I am OK with being 40, the alternative is well, you know..

~40 Things about me you might not know~

1. I believe in God.

2. I am a true Pisces, I am a dreamer.

3. I love the water, I want to move to the beach, and soon!

4. I am a Registered Nurse.

5. I work at the jail.. (I know).

6. I am not scared to work at the jail.  It is often sad, but also humorous.

7. I love to see people’s faces when I say I work at the jail.

8. I wanted 3 children, but I only have 2.

9. I am really short, 5’0 on a good day.

10. In my heart I am a hippie.

11. I am conservative when it comes to my family..

12. I used to be wild when I was younger.

13.  I taught myself to quilt, crochet and knit (my grandma tried to teach me, but I didn’t really get it at first.)

14. I love to read.

15. I wish I had more  time to read.

16. I love Spring.

17. I love Fall more.

18. I can’t stand Winter.

19. I like hate to be cold.

20. I don’t like to excercise, but I feel really good afterwards. (don’t we all?)

21.  I love being a wife.

22. I love being a Mom.

23.  I wish I could have one more baby, but I know I am too old. Darn it.

24. I love old houses, LOVE!

25. I want to move to Fiji.

26. I want to go to France where my grandmother grew up.

27. I want my house to be picture perfect, but it is not.  I am not the best housekeeper.

28. I worked in ICU for 14 years and by the time I left, I was having panic attacks.

29. My brother died from sudden cardiac death, he was 29. I still miss him like crazy.

30. My dad was recently killed by a drunk driver and I am still really mad and sad. I miss him like crazy also.

31. I miss my dad today. He always emailed me on my birthday. I always emailed him back the same thing each year.  Hi Dad, thank you for the Birthday wishes.   I am sad today…

32. I love red wine and my favorite ice cream is mint chocolate chip (the green one.)

33. I get bored really easily, I always need to have something going on..  I blame it on the adrenaline rush from being a nurse– I guess..?

34. Sleeping is one of my favorite activities, cooking is another.

35. I love to garden, but not in the middle of summer.

36. I buy most all of my clothes from the thrift store.  If you need it, you will find it if you look hard enough.. I used to be embarrassed to shop at them.   That is funny to me now.

37. I used to spend money like there was no tomorrow.  Now I am super frugal and proud of it.

38. I love animals. 3 dogs, 2 cats.  These animals are so spoiled. They are all rescue, except for  one dog that showed up on our porch, half dead.  We were going to find her a home, but then I buckled. She is the most spoiled.  She is a pit bull named Olivia.

39. My husband wants to come back in the next life as my dog. Weirdo!

40. My favorite place to be is home.

If you made it to the bottom of this list you will see I am super boring!  I have no idea why I always felt sad on my Birthday, but I can say this year is different. It really is. I am not sad, not today. I am truly grateful for all the love I have in my life.  It has just filled me up, more than I could have ever expected.  I am truly thankful.